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So I think that I've just had one of the best weekends, that I've had in a long time. My aunt from Durham was up here visiting and we were just chilling with her reminiscing about good times and acting stupid the whole weekend. I haven't laughed so much in such awhile. It was great hearing all the old stories about my family members and learning new things that I never knew before. Hearing them talk about people who were around before my time. Eating my grandmother's cooking. I've never been so full. She fixed roast, greens, biscuits, peas and corn, chicken, homemade ice cream, so much in just two days. College really makes me appreciate food now..lol. I had a great time. I wish that it would happen more often. It seems like it used to happen more when I was little and that's something that I miss. But times have changed and a lot of people are gone to a better place now. And also when you're a kid you don't really have a good sense of time. But it's just something I wanted to get out, that's all... :)

"I'm living on the edge out of control and the world just wont let me slow down..." ~Help Me Usher
*Sigh* I feel as if there aren't enough hours in the day..I'm constantly going I'm either in class, at work, or sleeping..I never have time to just rest and when I do get a chance it seems as if it doesn't last as long as I'd hoped. I think I'm in dire need of a vacation. I need to get away from it all. "I keep telling myself I'm living the good life.." and don't get me wrong things could be terrible I just want to SLOW DOWN...I feel like I'm going a mile a minute and soon I'm going to run out of gas...or get a flat tire or something...I'm already starting to breakdown..My sinuses are draining, causing my throat to hurt and I can only breathe out of one nostril..lol. I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop I guess. Things are going so good other than the fact that I'm extra broke in the bank. I just don't want anything to go wrong..and I'm afraid that something will if I keep going at such a fast pace...I'm tired. G'Night...whew.
p.s. I have a test tomorrow that I have yet to study for..and it's 12:58 in the mornin...help me!

Ok..So my birthday was a couple of days ago and I've just been thinking. I'm nineteen. What is nineteen exactly? I mean it's not eighteen. When you're eighteen you can finally vote. It's not twenty-one, so I'm not completely legal and I can't drink. It's not twenty which is big because you've actually been alive for two whole decades and it's the big 2-O for peats sake. So what is nineteen exactly? It is the very last of your teenage years. It's kind of like being a sophomore in high school. You're not a freshman anymore so people don't baby you as much. But by your sophomore year you've experienced a lot and learned the basics of the game. You've been there and done that, although you're still young enough to make mistakes. Twenty is like junior year you're almost there but not quite. The senior year is like being twenty-one. You're on top of the world, at your prime and there are more and more responsibilities for you to own up to. It seems like the older we get sometimes the more we are pushed into things. There are many more responsibilities constantly piled onto your plate and it just keeps on amazing you at how much of it you can really eat. But that's life it starts off slowly giving you only as much as you can take at one given time. Then the older you get the more you can take because you've learned from the mistakes of the past which are like riding a bike. Once you learn it you've got it and it aint going nowhere. So it makes life a little easier and a little less challenging. But there are always new challenges that you will be faced with. There's always more to learn and new mistakes to make. It'll always be that way until you close your eyes. So you know what I say? I say let all that wait...I'm nineteen and I don't have to worry about all that yet..It's the LAST of my teenage years and I'm going to LIVE it up...I'LL WORRY WHEN I'M TWENTY!!!!!!! So..here goes...My last year of freedom!

Well this is my first time being on livejournal and blogging so here goes...
First of all today is my birthday!!!! YAY!! Amazingly a lot of things that I never even imagined would happen happened today... Someone who usually doesn't tell me happy birthday did, which was a complete shock because I totally wasn't expecting it. I got balloons and a card from a friendofmine. I just felt extra special today and that's not usually how it goes down on my birthday. I usually feel as if something is missing but this time I don't. So all in all I'm happy. :)It's almost over and I'm savoring it up until the very last minute.